
With Preschool ending, we have long hours to fill and found just the way to do it. A friend of mine from the ward opened up a little dance studio in her home and we couldn’t have been more eager to join in on the fun.

Good thing your outfits still fit from the last time we took up ballet, and check out the requested Barbie Island Princess-inspired hairdos with little purple embellishments a la Auntie Alice (she even sent one for Liv). And come to find out, we do the general public a favor by wearing name necklaces.

Getting warmed up with new friends.

Plie! Who knew both of you were already quite familiar with beginning ballet moves; of which we have Barbie Nutcracker and Angelina Ballerina to thank, not to mention your 6 months pregnant mom’s rusty 8th grade skills!


And we sachet across the floor!
After the first day, we headed to Walmart to pick up some things for dinner and you were already trying out your moves, seriously oblivious to the fact that you were crashing into shopping carts and confused shoppers alike. I think there’s a lot more where that came from!






















Twindergarten
How are we already here?

Oh you are so excited. Last night I helped you carefully calculate your first day of kindergarten matching-shirts-but-not-matching-pants combo. Packed your Cupcake backpacks with extra Lipsmackers and Band-aids to share with all the new friends you’ll make. Breathed a sigh of relief that the hours we spent collecting double pink pencil boxes and Hello Kitty folders weren’t in vain. Today was it.
London pauses for a minute before going into Miss Cengic’s classroom, separated from sister as anticipated. At least you are at peace with being next door neighbors. Last week it was love at first sight when London first met her teacher because “she is SO pretty!” Somehow that fact alone chased every butterfly from your stomach.
Maddie is a little uneasy but a lot brave. Running a fever last night and skinning your knee on the way into school once again demonstrates your resilience. And, you are at advantage because your teacher’s name, Mrs. Wood, is easier for all of us to remember.
We couldn’t be more pleased with the pivotal instructors you and London will be spending seven plus hours each day with.
Any sentimentality about the first day of school was eclipsed by the shock of waking up this girl and finding out that she had spent 12 hours in her crib having removed her diaper…Way to provide an angry distraction so your mom couldn’t event think about crying, including the short trek to school, the drop-off, and the appropriately named ‘crying room breakfast’. I was beginning to blend in with the fathers in the building, you know with the ‘whatev’ shrugging of the shoulders.
Home again, the entourage has grown to seven babies (weren’t we trying to cut back?) while you have every couch to yourself and I am restless.
That brings us to now. Liv is wandering the house and I am wondering why it is so clean, and quiet. Isn’t that what I’ve been asking for all these years? However home doesn’t feel like home without you; your cereal bowls still in the sink and pajamas on the floor, I am waiting for you to spring from the crevices of the toy closet with your makeshift confetti and surprise one of your favorite princess guests, whose birthday it always seems to be.
I keep thinking about this conversation I had just five years ago in the NICU, after a particularly hard day when I wondered out loud to one of the nurses if having sick babies is something a person can ever recover from. And she changed my life, because she said to me, “This is just something they did…just like Kindergarten will be something they did.” The heartache of subsequent days was thwarted because of the vision you’d be doing just what you did this morning. I am more proud of you than I could ever have hoped.
Liv jumps out of the armoire yelling “surprise!” just the way you would, perhaps practicing for your grand return in just five hours. Three musketeers down to one feels so empty, but she is basking in my full attention and my day, and my joy, is already full
to
the
brim.
And now the tears can flow.